about now

Cyalaytr · September 11th, 2003, 06:32 AM

A lot of people were gathering in line at some airport to get on planes thinking they were just living another day in life....

Why across the county other were just about to wake up and go to work in a life where they thought material things mattered most.

wtc intro

The Towers remind us of Anger

but had I posted pix of everyone who lost their life that day 2 yrs ago.... would enough tears flow to fill this room?

Towers are material
Life is golden
Memories are forever

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**SHATOUSHKA** · September 11th, 2003, 06:36 AM

Originally posted by Cyalaytr:
A lot of people were gathering in line at some airport to get on planes thinking they were just living another day in life....

Why across the county other were just about to wake up and go to work in a life where they thought material things mattered most.

<font size="4" face="Tempus Sans ITC, Tahoma">yanno.... coming from a position in which all
i face each day is a type of nihilism you simply
cannot grasp without being there....

sometimes being oblivious is a good thing...
just like being materialistic

i hope this will be all i have to say on it
(without giving more detail)

Cyalaytr · September 11th, 2003, 06:40 AM

no matter where you think you are or where you think you will end up...

this is free space to be you... just cause you view life different or maybe skewed from my view point I would never cast you off and not listen to your words. [img]confused.gif[/img]

**SHATOUSHKA** · September 11th, 2003, 06:43 AM

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that really meant alot, cya

Cyalaytr · September 11th, 2003, 06:50 AM

I mean it! And just hope (as I know people think I am a bit off the ol rocker) that they walk a mile in my race boots before they judge me.

If I could see with your eyes Shatzy I could see a word of pain, and a world of laffs all at the same time. I may not understand it all but given time I can learn. Seeing your laff in the TG SHATZY video beems light of a happy happy person. But when you speak of nihilism you cast a dark shadow that makes it hard to see the real you. [img]confused.gif[/img]

**SHATOUSHKA** · September 11th, 2003, 06:57 AM

*sniffles*

that branson excursion was great therapy for me...
(even though tg wasn't aware of it)....

i think the greater gift right now is the fact
that someone is telling me that they acknowledge
my problem -- not that they may understand it...
but just that they ackowledge it.

from where i'm standing mentally, i'm not sure
how that helps... but it does.

i suppose that seeing this topic and viewing
the pic (which i love)... and remembering the
occurance.... coupled with whats going on inside
me... and still being here and seeing everyone
making absolute motions in recognition of life
and all there is....

i just cried

**Babi BootifuL** · September 11th, 2003, 07:03 AM

*wants to give shatzy a big hug*

**Babi BootifuL** · September 11th, 2003, 07:04 AM

....and cya for that matter...

Cyalaytr · September 11th, 2003, 07:07 AM

.... whipes you eyes.

I am glad TG took you away from us. You could see the happiness in your face in the video and feel it when you got back.

I'm a big big guy and I dont think I have cried excpet maybe 3 times since I was a kid and when the towers went down that was one of them when they showed the memorial.

Another was for Princess Diana.

Some tears are good. They say knowledge is power.. but more so I think what you do with that power. Alison you are waaaaaaaaay to smart to let anything beat you down. If you need to get away from it all .. put a note on the door "GONE FISHIN, grab the video cam and tell that TG to come get his woman and take her away for awhile and live some life. I bitch cause sometimes I don't have all the answers to life. I think you have all the answers yet need to go live wild and free for awhile and maybe those answers and thoughts will leave your head when you see the sites and flowers, and lil kids laughing.

[img]graemlins/cell.gif[/img] TG [img]graemlins/car.gif[/img] away 2 weeks.... come back [img]biggrin.gif[/img]